Trust - This is a BIG one for me. I trust that God is working out everything for good and really doesn't need my help. He is protecting us and providing for us in ways that we will never see, but will we will recognize and acknowledge. I trust that my kids are making good decisions and that they live in truth in their words and actions. I'm having a hard time finding that balance between holding them close and letting them grow. No matter how hard I try to forget, I remember the decisions I made at 13 and 17 and it makes me quiver. My consolation is that they are way smarter than I ever was :). I trust that leaders, teachers, and coaches are well qualified and sincere in their intentions of doing what is best for everyone involved. Ok, Ok...maybe they do know what they are talking about....some of the time:)
Train - As I mentioned earlier, time is flying and this time next year, graduation will be staring us in the face. I have some time to train Samuel how to cook and clean and do laundry and balance a checkbook and shop for food without going behind him and doing it the way I want it done. And how can I train Cooper to tackle high school with dignity and grace when I 'm not so sure I was very good at that? So, I hope to train them more through my actions than my words. Intentional actions. Trusting that my Training will provided a strong foundation for their future. Training is also my occupation and I resolve to train myself and others with enthusiasm to gain and provide expert knowledge in my field. I just have to laugh at that! It sounds like something I would write for a 'Job Target' but I am sincere.
Treasure - Although our families are very healthy and come from a line of 'long livers', we are getting older and our life stages are altering. To me, my parents have always been the age they were when I was Cooper's age - about the age I am now. But they can't be my age if I am my age. I treasure every moment I get to spend with our parents, siblings, and other extended family. My parents raised very independent children and we all seemed to go our own way as adults. We may not talk or visit often, but we are family and we come together when we need to. And now I am raising children who are also developing that same strong independence. So I will treasure memories made and yet to be made; time spent and yet to be spent; TLC given and yet to be given; phone calls, text messages, tweets, snapchats - they are all being added to my treasure chest.
Trash - Maybe de-clutter is a better word but it doesn't start with T. Trash bad habits like my diet and lack of consistent exercise. I can trash the grudges I deny I have along with the chip on my shoulder. Did I really just write that? Well I can't delete it then. I can trash a compliant and comfortable attitude and strive for something greater. I can trash some items from my drawers and closet and my kids say, "Amen!"
Try - I won't be perfect (according to some...) and I probably will not participate in these resolutions everyday, but I will try. I will Try to be the woman and servant that God has asked me to be. I will Try to be the wife that Rick deserves - passionate about our marriage, our ministry, and our life together. I will Try to be the mother and grandmother that Samuel and Cooper respect and revere-supporting and encouraging in their endeavors. I will Try to be the leader that models professionalism and 'personal-ism' for coworkers and clients-offering expertise and compassion. I will Try. Try new foods (yuck). Try new looks (uh oh). Try to keep up (huff huff huff). Try to let go (sniff sniff). Try to post more blogs (good intentions). I will Try. That is all I can ask of myself.
I hope you all determine to Try something in 2015. Something old or new, or big or small, something restraining or liberating, just something!
Wishing you all a very blessed year!
Tori